I realize the backgrounds in a lot of my pictures have been overexposed lately. I'm doing it on purpose even though I'm not quite sure why. It's got something to do with aesthetics. Sometimes things just look better, even if they aren't technically right.
It's October 22 today. I graduate college in approximately 56 days. I have no job lined up. I have nothing lined up. I was planning on moving to Minneapolis/St. Paul in January, but I have a love/hate relationship with the city. There are times when I think I'd like the hustle and bustle of the city. There are other times when I think I'd absolutely hate it. Hopefully, I will be attending graduate school in Fall 2012, so I'll have to live in the city eventually. So should I stay out here, in the country, for another 1.5 years while I can? I mean, when will I have the next chance to live away from everything? Approximately 2018.
I have no idea what to do with this 1.5 year gap.
I don't know. I really don't know and it bothers me sometimes. I hate voids. I like to be busy. I like it when everything is planned out and I have stuff to do. At the moment, I have nothing to do for 1.5 years. I know some people would be like, "Whoa, duuuuuude, I have nothing to do for 1.5 years! SOLID!" but I'm not some people. I can't even watch TV because I feel like it's a waste of time. I rushed through college and am finishing early. Most people my age will be done in 2012. So really, this 1.5 is like a gift. It should be free time. Like when you were the first one done with your test in middle school, so you got to read a book while everyone else finished their tests and caught up to you. Except I'm not required to sit around and read a book anymore. I can keep on sprinting ahead if I want to. If only I knew how.
And there's always the thought.... what if I don't get into grad school? I'll have to save that one for another day.
SO GLAD you enjoyed the Love Your Body Day interviews! I thought they were great, too! Another round of applause for my fantastic interviewees, please!
Sweater: Forever 21
Dress: Jean Paul Gaultier for Target
Fedora: Urban Outfitters
Shoes: Jeffrey Campbell
Move to San Fran!!
ReplyDeleteOMG, those shoes. Are you kidding me right now? I HAVE to have them. Dammit!!
xo,
Tracy
this reminds me of the outfit i wore when we took photos with my umbrella :]]]
ReplyDeleteof course, without these amazing shoes!!
i had a freak out about the future today too. i skyped my parents like "I WILL NEVER GET A JOB!!"
I am also terrified about grad school. I want to go to the best journalism school in the UK and part of me thinks, why the hell do I think I deserve to be at the best journalism school in the country?
Also, I would be freaking out too. I love to be busy too, I need to constantly have a plan. Even a short term plan. I freak out if I don't know what's going on.
Assess your options and like you said, this could be your last time to go move somewhere amazing.
Hey, I moved across the world!! It's not as scary as you think :]]]
Charlotte xxx
Love this outfit!!!! And hmm, I'm sure you'll figure out what to do, just do what feels right.
ReplyDeleteAnd I know exactly what you mean about it being from Hollister and I agree, haha. Some of their stuff is great while most of it is just ICK! Luckily this was on clearance and awesome :) I always peek at the clearance just in case there's a gem in there, haha.
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Gorgeous! I love how you put this outfit together, mixing the solid pink with the animal print.
ReplyDeleteYou know what? Some of the best things that have happened to me in my life were not planned. And it's true that everything happens for a reason and everything will work out in the end. You'll see! Just listen to your heart and be open to change. Good luck!
Oh and your shoes are (picture me saying this next word in a really high-pitched voice) AWWWWWWESUMMMM!
ReplyDeleteWhat's your degree in? (I feel like I've asked this, but I can't remember). Also, you have the most heartbreakingly beautiful face.
ReplyDeleteI have a love/hate relationship with the city too. And you know what? Who cares what people think? Follow your bliss! :-)
ReplyDeleteUm, those shoes are awesome. Paired with leopard print, methinks you're unstoppable.
Well, first of all let me make your day a little bit better by telling you that these have to be the most awesome pair of platforms I have seen lately and if I was not vertically challenged as I am I would totally be rocking something like this.
ReplyDeleteSecondly, consider this every bit as a gift. I hope you don;t mind me asking but is there an obligation from your family for you to be working as soon as you finish school? If not then I would definitely advise you to travel if the bank account allows you to. You don;t necessarily have to go out of country but there are so many wonderful places to see in the United States and even in my country that I would have loved to visit if I had the time and money.
Whatever happens it will surely be an adventure. Life never just let's us sit back and get bored if we do not want to. :)
Love from Toronto, Canada
Ahhh those shoes are flippin' amazing! Loving them! I feel your pain being stressed about your 1.5 yr gap too! Congrats on finishing school early though; I'm probably going to have to do an extra quarter or two because apparently I'm horrible at planning! :/ Oh well, not ready to be a real grown up anyways haha!
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ReplyDeleteI've been eyeing those JCs for a long time.. and there you have it! Completely jealous.. ;)
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I LOVE your shoes!! This is such a great outfit, and the hat just adds a great touch as well! Cities can definitely be a lot of fun, and I think offer a lot of great opportunities to connect with other people you wouldn't normally get to meet (kinda like blogging actually...), but the country is great too! Hah, I totally understand about TV too, its not my favorite past time. Actually, one reason I started my blog was to deal with an bit of gap in my own plans. I'm sure you'll come up with something awesome though! I hope you have a great weekend! :)
ReplyDeletelove the pink skirt!!!
ReplyDeleteif i were you, i will travel during that free time. i would love to have that free time. i worked right when i graduated.. giving me about 3 days break. LOL!!
Janelle
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You look TOTALLY FAB hunnie.....soooo in love with those shoes.....(and of course that skirt)
ReplyDeleteI think your pics are perfect the way they are....)
Much love.....:)
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Move to Europe?! Always amazing. You look gorgeous - loving those shoes and hot pink - seriously, this Target is quite fantastic!
ReplyDeleteI'm torn... do I praise your wild outfit first or do I address your serious life-choice... I can't resist -- let's do the outfit!
ReplyDeleteWow! Every element is exciting. As everyone else says, your shoes are amazing. And the animal-print, combined with bright pink and black lace, is hitting all the high notes. A virtuouso performance, buddy.
Now the serious stuff... First, congrats on graduating early. From how you describe yourself, you'll be best served by finding something constructive -- and fun -- to do during your educational gap. Not having plans wouldn't be good for you. So pick something -- but make sure it's fun. Something you enjoy, as well as being productive.
There are many possibilities. I'd explore an internship somewhere cool, like a fashion-designer. (That's not far-fetched: my blogger friend Meg [Style My Story] is working at Marysia Swim.)
Another alternative is travel but, of course, they requires money. Maybe you can work for half the time and travel for the rest.
Later in life you'll realize what a prized gift this free time is. Don't regret wasting it. Seize the chance and do something you'll remember!
Beautiful outfit, love the pink skirt!
ReplyDeletelove your outfits ))
ReplyDeleteyou look gorgeous ^^
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All that and you still finish early??!!? I am in complete awe of you.
ReplyDeleteI say take the time to travel. Even if it's just in the U.S., from one friend's place to the next. I wish I had taken more time to do that before work commitments gobbled up all but my 3 weeks of vacation.
ReplyDeleteAnd, I like the over-exposure. It's working, especially with the semi-bare tree limbs in the back. It creates a stark, ghostly kind of mood and the colors in your outfits really pop out in contrast.
omyyy holy cow! i love pink over printed top! its just so gorgeous! man that shoes! i gotta have that <3 <3
ReplyDeleteYu're so pretty! :)
ReplyDeleteFab outfit, LOVE the shoes. JC ftw, right? Xx
The overexposure makes the pix look so good so no need to change that. Love the skirt!
ReplyDeleteGorgeous shoes!
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i LOOVVEEE your jeffrey campbells and the sweater ! and your half tinted sunnies are equally cool too !
ReplyDeletehappy sunday xx
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So lovely skirt!!
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Firslty gorgeous outfit, I love how vibrant that skirt is! As for the gap year I was in the same situation when I finished university. It's really hard and I think only you can decide what you want to do, and as for grad school you have to think positively but you also need to plan for any possibility.
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Don't stress! Take your time and enjoy it! As I can bet there won't be a possibility like that anymore in the future! I'm one of those people who needs their time filled and plans made, too, but sometimes all you need is carpe diem and learn to "il bel far niente" :)
ReplyDeleteHoly cow!! We seriously did an outfit shoot this weekend with a VERY similar outfit. Hot pink on the bottom and the black, white, and gray leopard on top! I will send you pics when I post it, SO WEIRD!
ReplyDeleteAnyways, congrats on graduating early, that is a major accomplishment!! I knkow you have told me, but what is your degree in and what were you going to go to graduate school for??
Hope you are have a fab weekend and LOVE the shoes!!
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Lovely! You'd be surprised at how busy you will probably be for the rest of your life :) Enjoy the gaps as they come, the universe always has a way of working out, and all those uncertainties will be filled soon enough (isn't thinking about them so much more difficult than living them?)
ReplyDeleteThose shoes are gorgeous. And I have the same fears all the time. I'm 1.5 years away from graduation, and I am SCARED out of my mind. It makes me want to be a first year again. There is no way I want to get out on the job market, or start thinking about grad school right now. But best of luck to you! My high school english teacher once told me that everyone ends up where they belong. Hopefully this holds true ;)
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http://closethound.blogspot.com
1- great shoes
ReplyDeletemy heart melted for them <3
2- u look like gorgeous barbie in pink ! u dont wear it often =/
3- i know how u feel ,, i dropped high school a year because of health issues ,, and family issues ,, and i just couldn't attend school so ,, instead of taking Fs ,, i stopped ,,
i mean that year ,, i literally ,, felt like shooting myself in the head ,, no work ,, no school ,, no nothing ,, just un matured partying ,,
so that year ended ,,, and i started school ,, surprise surprise ,, i wasn't in the studying mood ,, and hated my old school now that all my friends graduated ,, moved to another private school ,, and thank god i loved it ,, and all went well ,, back to study mood ,, graduated ,,
too personal ,, but point is ,, u can do allot in this 1.5 year ,, stay in the country if that what u love ,, work in something that will help u with the grad school
plus ,, to be continued
4- how do u guys study ? i mean here what i know is we do the Bachelor degree in 4 years ,, or 5 or 6 haha
ReplyDeletebut normally is 4 years ,,
master in 2 years ,,
Ph.D. ,, and dont know ,,
like how ,, or what is graduate school =/
5- stop worrying too much =( thats not good ,,
i hope everything goes well ,, and u plan ur life/school / and everything ,,,
hugs xx
I loved reading every word of your "wordy" comment. I love long winded comments especially when I can tell you have plenty of firing synapses up in that brain of yours.
ReplyDeleteI use a Canon EOS Rebel XS. I was eying the Ti's, but I couldn't justify spending a lot of money when I am just learning digital photography, the same way I can't justify buying a MAC until I'm either a) in a professional occupation or b) doing conferences all the time.
I have NEVER found you to be narcissistic and if you are, you hide it incredibly well. I can tell that you're fashion blogging to share, but I feel like you're still really down to earth and not posting 55495 pictures because you're in love with yourself. Have you ever read lululetty.blogspot.com? It's run by a woman named Maria Confer and she is incredibly down to earth despite her success. Do you know what I mean? I read some blogs where the author may try to seem nice or connected with the audience, but you can still smell the narcissism and air of self importance. Some people come off self obsessed, but it's never something I pick up off you. Idk. Vibes, I guess.
Please slap me if I ever become like this.